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Aaron N. Tubbs

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The head of development in my product area came over and wanted to have a chat, and he proceeded to argue that I should stay with the bank, and offered me a position under him. The points he made were important — in that I am giving up my pension, options, and the network of people I’ve already built at this company. But there are so many other concerns that aren’t resolved by just jumping over the fence and working the same job from the software engineering side.

Now, I’ve already signed with my new company, which isn’t to say these things aren’t manageable, but despite the back-handed complement of the whole experience, I realized that I have no interest in returning to the bank at present. Much like the “we keep lists of people who might quit, but don’t do anything until they do” this was too little too late. He said he would have offered before, but for various reasons he figured I was smart and I must have wanted to stay in that position. Then he cited confusion about my formerly going to France taking him until now to straighten out and understand.

At the end of the day, I’m not interested in the offer … I would achieve some of my newfound goals, including working with more intelligent/experienced folks and being a little closer to the profit side of the equation, but there are just too many other factors that I cannot reconcile. I learned a lot here in a relatively short amount of time, and one of the things I learned is that this is not the culture for me.

I guess what I found surprising about the whole experience is that he was the first person — somebody I didn’t even work directly for — that actually fought my attempts to leave. Everybody else put up the symbolic effort, but had already resigned themselves that I’d made up my mind and could not be swayed. Now, maybe that was out of respect for my decision, maybe that was because they realized they had screwed up and it was too late to try to repair the damage, or maybe they just didn’t recognize what they were losing. But, at the end of the day, it was somewhat interesting that somebody finally said “wait, what the hell, this doesn’t make any sense, you’re giving up on somebody brought in through our accelerated program, brought in as a graduate trainee, brought in to be the future of management in IT (or beyond) at the bank … we shouldn’t be letting him go without a fight.”

Ok, enough pandering.